Zoë (Zoë’s version) @moiety@queer.garden

Hey there babes. So, I recently got my lower gender confirmation surgery in July, and because I have a shallow depth, my physical recovery has been a lot quicker than some folks.

Moreover, I didn’t realize there was an in-between option for bottom surgery. I knew about full depth, and vulvaplasty or no-depth. But shallow depth was never offered until I asked if it was possible. And I feel like that’s a huge oversight because other trans femmes I know want to know how I got it.

I’m a lesbian who isn’t into penetration, so I didn’t have any use for a full depth vagina. I know a lot of folks like me who probably feel the same, and I think it’s important to let people this option exists.

Yesterday, after my dilations, I decided I was going to, very gently, explore with my finger a bit. No play, just feel about. My dilators are the size of fat carrots so a finger isn’t a big deal. And it was cool. Found the end, felt a couple sutures still in there.

But the most incredibly affirming thing was realizing my whole index finger fit inside. Not only did the space feel warm, and like a part of me, but I’m actually a lot deeper than the dilators make it seem, because they’re fucking huge.

A finger or two inside is all I’ve ever wanted. And now I can have that, and it feels like it was always meant to. I don’t have shame and confusion around that part of me anymore. It’s finally fixed.

It was a huge euphoria moment and I just wanted to share it with y’all.

💙💖🤍💖💙