jude @gentlerdarknesses@queer.garden

lighting a candle for all of you who're hurting or confused or in an impossible or dark position/place and don't know where things could possibly go from here. i love you.

“Every day
I see or I hear
something
that more or less
kills me
with delight,
that leaves me
like a needle
in the haystack
of light.
It is what I was born for—
to look, to listen,
to lose myself
inside this soft world—”

--- Mary Oliver, "Blue Iris: Mindful"

the parts of you they've tried to reprogram were really important. the parts of you they've tried to make you feel ashamed of were parts of you that are so good. there is nothing wrong with you. disrupting straight white allistic norms are so much more important than respectability politics, and i hope you find people who celebrate those parts of you instead of punishing them, because you deserve that.

and I gave a beer to a bum that was drinking
and I gave some sauce to my bestest friend for cooking
and I gave water to all I thought were thirsty

and that's how I learned how to survive 🌱

💚 here's 40+ PDFs for coping skills, challenging thoughts, managing anger, managing distress, identifying and rating feelings, relaxation, sleep hygiene, and therapist materials

https://depts.washington.edu/hcsats/PDF/TF-%20CBT/pages/cognitive_coping.html

i wish i was little like a ferret and had a little ferret bed to sleep on..imagine having a fluffy bed way bigger than you to burrow ur little noodle body into. paradise

everyone watches garden state for the first time in college

i hate when adults label certain kids as bad. they're not "bad kids"; no kids are "bad kids" they're usually just poc or neurodivergent or queer kids you took the liberty of labeling a troublemaker

i don't have anything allistic or "intelligent" to "say" about "music"

grubby little punks can have a little salami, as a treat

eggs see you and see the possibilities of who they could be instead of the forcing themselves into a mold that doesn't fit them. you open up an entire world to them. your existence on it's own communicates hope

if you're trans you're already the patron saint of hope w/o even trying, every day little eggs see you and realize that people like them exist and that they're not alone and that they have a community

save everyone that you can. everyone who might otherwise slip through the cracks

please tell me about some leafy flora that would look good in blackwork/dotwork

just put them all on a football field and whoever can kick the football furthest can be president except pete buttigeg..and biden. and yang because he makes me uncomfortable about his son.

no one:

biden: i was vice president

trans and allies only

me: we should get rum and do a shot whenever biden says something dangerously centrist

jon: baby, if we did that you'd die

i wish cis youtubers would stop making reaction videos when someone comes out as trans

vinny gambini was a working-class hero, send toot

oh? a white cis man with long hair who cries? forget the oscar take my wife

gender: constantly preparing for the worst-case senario

kindness+courage
kindness+courage
kindness+courage

a lot of people make fun of autistic people--especially if they don't know we're autistic--for not understanding social cues, body language or just for being "weird" & justify it by telling themselves we don't know you're laughing at us. but we do. we know you're making fun of us. we know that you think you're better than us. we know you don't think of us as people. ppl have been doing this to us our entire lives. and y'know..you're not being edgy or funny, you're just being a dick.